dollmasterlee | On Resigning and Retracting My Resignation (Reply)

My job isn't really something that I cared about before. Basically, I go to work because I need my salary to sustain my hobby (I'm an otaku, LOL) and my personal needs. And although my job title sounds interesting (Fraud Analyst), it does not give me any warm feelings.

These past few weeks had been really challenging. Apart from the change in management and the fact that my close friends who also happen to be my colleagues have been promoted (I haven't), I was expected to participate in a team overtime challenge, something that I've never really appreciated since I'm an otaku (and a slight hikikomori). Nevertheless, the biggest reason for my discontent is the fact that I haven't received a single promotion even after a year of my tenure.

During the course of these events, I also received an offer to go back to teaching where my salary could become higher, overtime isn't mandatory and promotion is easier to achieve. The offer seemed promising and due to my displeasure with my current job, I submitted my resignation letter two weeks ago.

Resigning is something that I don't normally think twice about. Once I have made up my mind, nothing can change my decisions. I left my prior job because of discontent as well and no one was able to make me retract my resignation at that time, not even the students that I treasured.

I will be honest in saying that I don't love my job, neither do I like it. And because I don't like it, I never really tried my best. But as I was reading a online post about Ohno Satoshi, I saw this infamous line: "If you can't even do your current job properly, how can you hope to do something even more ambitious?". Apparently, he said this to his team members during the time that they were insecure about their status in the entertainment industry.

I've never been affected this much by someone else's words but at that time I was. And the amazing thing is, It came at the exact time that I was needing inspiration. He was right, I cannot just leave because I am failing. I need to do something to become better instead of quitting. I may not like my job right now but it isn't something that I hate and if I still have a reason to stay, even though my reasons to leave are bigger, I want to bet on it. I want to be proud of myself in the future just like how proud ARASHI is now because they never quit in the face of adversity.